Mood:  not sure

So I sit here wondering exactly why I'm doing this.  I think it is because a part of me wants out in to the real world, and yet the fear and shyness is still there.  I want to escape, I want to be heard, I don't want to be alone anymore...but I want my space, my privacy, my time alone!!! 

Sometimes sitting here I begin to feel as though nobody understands me, nobody understands how I feel, the dark fighting the light, the light fighting the dark.  I have a million thoughts running though my head, all heard and yet none listened to.  I'm wrong though, others understand.  Thanks to the net, finding the websites of others that feel exactly like me, they feel the darkness closing in, craving the light and yet wanting the comfortable feelings of the darkness.  Its taken years of my life away from me, even stopping me from writing.  Perhaps now I can attempt to try again, only time will tell.