Sanguis
Mood:  don't ask
I thought things were getting better, but I think thats only because I was stupid enough to let my heart fall for somebody that can't love me the way I love him.  Over time I sit and watch as he jumps to get online to be with another, and yet all i wish is for him to want to spend that much time with me instead.  I gave him the chance today, and the understanding that he has two days to figure out what he wants before I make up my mind what I want.  I see at the moment that he is too busy sitting up a desk in his own room instead of dealing with what he needs to deal with.  Its ok, maybe if I see less of him, I'll care less, maybe if I hear less of him, I'll want him less. Personally I feel myself sinking each and every day back in the darkened shell I was prior to finding him.  I guess he isn't the answer, I guess he isn't the clue.... I guess I need to start looking again.